Second Chance

I wrote this for my older brother Josh, who is so amazing in my life.

Through those gentle eyes I see love looking back at me
I remember when I was so little and you were my protector; my night in shining armor; those days when for both of us life was free.
When in those days my biggest worry was where my Barbie had gone missing
It makes me sad to sit here looking back on life; reminiscing.
I wish I could go back to the days when we went to Michigan to hang out at the beach
Where we would wrestle around in the sand and my laugh would get to a pitch I didn't even know it could reach.
I was never scared when with you because I knew if you were around every thing would be ok
And now there are so many things to fear growing up in this day.
My heart saddens thinking how I can't just reach out to you and snuggle by your side
Oh how I miss you and I fear you don't even know how much you have been my guide.
People like you are what makes this life perfect and complete
With out you there would be no solid ground beneath my feet.
I remember when you used to play monster with us and my heart would race with joy
And then when I got older and you would threaten that if I were hurt by any man it would be a man you would have to destroy ?.
I miss your laugh and the way the corner's of your eyes wrinkle when something really makes you smile
I miss talking to you and telling you stories and just sitting and laughing for a while.
You're my big brother the one I look up to and want to be
The one that lifts me upon his shoulders because I couldn't see
I thought that when I was little and continue to think that now
You are the Best older brother I could ask for and when I look back the only words to escape my lips are wow…
I fear that I have not told you I love you enough or how much my life has been impacted by you
I fear that it may have gotten to the point where you don't believe that at all but I want to emphasize how much it is true, how much it is that I love you.
Every one deserves a second chance at life to tell the one they love how they really feel
So here I am pouring out my heart to you so you know the important role you play in my life and that what you and I have is real.
I know that you will be there for me through whatever it is I may endeavor
I love you so much Josh and my love for you is true; it was true then, it's true now, and will be forever.